I've been staring down October 30th on the calendar for quite a few weeks (and months).
I've been worried about a lot of things for this 5K, but it turns out they were all of no weight in the grand scheme of life. That's right. Life. Those worries are of little significance to what's on my heart right now.
|Chad was always in with the ladies!|
Two friends died this week...first, I learned of Chad, 32, a friend who passed away on the other side of the country. And just yesterday afternoon, it was Amber, a beautiful 18 year old young woman in our TLC program.
Both of them were beautiful souls...with sparkle, vitality, energy, talent and loving hearts...and both were lost to cancer.
One heartbreak is enough to sink a spirit, but two in a row have left me feeling incredibly hollow this week.
And in the midst of all this--- I'm planning on running a race?
|Amber and I just two weeks ago|
She's so right.
As I take my mark among 500 other runners I will feel a lot of emotion. I'm still not aiming to make an impressive time because that would just be entirely unrealistic. I run with a purpose.
I carry with me Zach and so many others whose lives have been interrupted, forever changed--- or ended by cancer.
I can't fight cancer. I can't cure cancer.
All the marketing buzz words waving on banners can't annihilate this disease. Knowing that almost seems the definition of 'powerless'.
However, for whatever it's worth, I still feel there can be a vibration from the difference that one can make by doing something. It can't bring my friends back. Yet, in times of grief and tragedy we need a way out of powerlessness. I need to feel that even more now.
In some small way...I will carry the stories of my lost friends with me on my run.
Having raised over $1,700 for young adults across the country who still struggle with their disease and seek the financial help of the SamFund...I know I did something.
Thank you to all of you who have stood behind me and allowed me, not only to not give up but to push forward. There is no way I could have do this without you.